The Problem with Patience (also known as Karma's revenge)

(Inspired by the "ex's")

Before, when I was in a relationship, I would do some type of self-sabotage. Cheating, disinterest were the tactics of choice in activities that were purely selfish. Couldn't quite understand why it was I would choose this route as opposed to just realizing that I wasn't ready to commit.

Now I'm at a point where I want to be in a relationship and of course, as it always seems to be, I cannot find a situation that fits my aspirations. One girl has put me in the 'friend-zone' (an ego blow at the least), while others don't quite measure up to my sometimes unrealistic expectations.

I call it Karma's Revenge.

So now I'm at a point where being patient is an internal conflict that goes on in my mind and heart. Do you wait for someone who you feel is worth it? Or chalk it up as a loss and move on. The irony is almost comical because the situation used to be reversed. Others have waited for me to come to my senses; by the time it took place it was too late. I've come to realize that sometimes it not something wrong with me or the 'other', but the timing is what makes it all wrong. No matter how one goes about self-improvement to make themselves more desirable, it doesn't necessarily translate to being more appealing. It's a harsh reality.

Solution? Maybe there is none, especially in my particular case. But then again, this might be a product of late-night trippin'. Who knows right now, but tomorrow is a different day.